Life is just too short
When I
was young, I would lie awake on my bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking
about death. Thinking about how I would feel when I inhaled that last
breath.
Would
I feel as if I were suffocating?
Would it
be like falling asleep?
Where
would my soul go?
Would
I remember my days on earth – my parents, my elder sister, my
dog, Peter?
Then,
each time, just as I was about to drift off into la-la land, I would
be jolted awake by the memory of my pre-sleep thoughts.
Heart
pumping as rapidly as the tears that ran down my 10-year-old cheek,
I would run to Mummy, too afraid to fall asleep alone for fear of never
seeing the sun shine again.
Fifteen
years later, these thoughts have come back to haunt my nights.
I recently
had a cancer scare. During an examination, the doctor discovered and
removed a polyp.
I was petrified.
To me, lumps meant cancer — and cancer meant death.
For one
week, I was on an emotional roller coaster. During that period, Varsity
was working on a couple of articles on death and funerals for this issue.
Ironically, while editing the articles for Periscope (see Pp. 10 to
15), I found some sort of catharsis. My fear of death was not totally
gone, but it was not as crippling.
Fortunately,
the test results came back negative. I didn’t have cancer.
That incident
made me look hard at life.
I’ve
come to realize that life is too short to waste time crying over a bad
grade.
Life is
far too precious to waste being worried over whether I belong in an
“in” group, or whether I dress fashionably. Even if I were
to be branded an “Mk person” (see Pp. 26 to 27), it would
not be the end of the world.
Life is
just too short.
Alison
Jenner
Copy
Chief
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